Excuses..Excuses..

Yikes. I havent blog sinced March and its about the middle of June... I seriously should consider majoring in procrastination but that's a whole other story. I mean life gets busy. But yet I find myself thumbing through Pinterest or checking out my news feed. To completely honest, since may and beyond, this really reflects my failure to spend time with Jesus. I seem to, no scratch that, I DO put the things of this world before Him, and, to say the least, it's embarrassing/sad. Jesus is always waiting for me to take time out of my day to simply be with Him. He created me to be filled with Him. Nothing else can fill that spot. It's like putting milk in a fuel tank... it just won't work.

A couple weekends ago, me and my Monroe YL team and some other leaders/friends from my area went to Leader Weekend at Timberwolf Lake, a YL camp in Michigan. Talk about being filled with Jesus. Each morning I woke up with a pure craving for Christ. I just wanted more & more, and I'm pretty sure that's what He wants from us. To become obsessed with Him. Not because it shows how much we love Him, but we slowly learn how much He loves us. And when I grasp just a small portion of how much Christ loves me, I become overwhelmed. Goosebumps, chills, and the whole sha-bang. Jesus has been really making it clear to me that for me to be filled with complete joy in life, I must believe how much He loves me. That burning, unconditional love that none can possess- besides Him. Knowing that brings peace because Jesus' love is freeing. At club the speaker, Marshal, talked about how we all believe this lie that life is expected to have "mountain top'' experiences 24/7. But it's so false. Jesus knows we are going to have "valleys" in life, too. It's there, in those moments of grief, pain, heartache..you name it, that Jesus meets us. Knowing that He is for me & shares in my suffering brings comfort in these times. Gosh, what a love. 

Seriously though. That weekend was a spiritual makeover; something I didnt realize I needed. I was in a "valley" and He spoke straight to my deepest heart condition. To be honest, I feel like I'm now slowly starting to climb  my way back up the mountain... and it's tough. But Jesus is with me. Every single step of the way; He is there.